Saturday, October 06, 2007
{ 3:30 PM }
Rite now..i feel really lost..not sure if watever im doing is right or wrong...puzzled abt everything..i feel so useless and hopeless..
i have someone who i call boyfren but he's like not there...i have no idea who the one changing..me or him...is it wrong for me to kill time wif my fren,have fun rather than feel sad that i have no one to talk wif..during my free time when he's at work...?i wonder...i feel sad deep down inside seeing others go out happily spending time wif their loveones...
coz i know deep down,he is working hard to support himself n for his future...who am i to disagree to whatever he's doing is..im nobody...not his wife...im invisible...
im just plain lost...
i hate my life...my house is more like hell rather than home sweet home...
im not a superwomen who can save the world..
im not catwomen who is independent..
i am myself..a girl who is longing for a lil attention n love from someone who she call darling,her baby,her love and life..who is dependent on him..
is it wrong to just crave for attention?
at times i wonder if the love i gave him is enough...
