Tuesday, July 31, 2007
{ 3:35 AM }
im only juz done with the ETP project.STUPID editing shit seh!
i hate projects...no wait! i dont hate projects,i enjoy doing project but only hate it when people dont co-operate wif me...
time check! its hmmmm...nearly 4am..damn seh..!
well...sunday..date is 29/07/07..
i had a lovely evening wif MrB..though i was such a spoiler in the morning..
its like our 7months anniversary..and for all the previous months back, we didnt actually go out or watever the rest of other couples did every mth on their anni.
so..that day was special ah...kinda the 1st time we celebrate..
we went for snack & dessert at coffee club..had sandwich 1st...followed by dessert..yum yum!! mud pie & cheesecake...sedap ah mudpie!!pity me...but i got to taste...
after that went to the Cathy...watched "Knocked up"..."funny" show seh!i really laughed my hearts out...so did MrB...
That whole time it was HIS treat...its sweet seh!!! i really enjoyed myself wif him that day...sometimes i wonder,is my life gonna be the same w/o him around to make me smile n feel irritated...but in the same time HAPPY... i dont know...dont know wat i'll do w/o him...it seems that now im more happier n crazier hanging out wif him than my frens...coz we got to talk...hmmm...debate alot abt stuff...n like dat we get to know each other better..
each day that i dont meet or msg me him,i felt that d day is draggy n slow...
he is my comfort zone..
he's my joker
he's my guardian angel...
he's my love..my baby..
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we took diz pix months back...love diz pix!!but i hate how i look..
got double chin seh....hmmmmmmmm...now i think he's kinda mad wif me...
well IM KINDA MAD WIF MYSELF!!
i kinda shout at him coz im kinda very fucking stress abt the ETP shit...
im the 1 doing till like 4am n i need to submit later in the morning..
funny...nah..not even funny...shark still got the cheeck to say that to tell teacher giving an excuse that the project is wif Wan who is going Japan later also...like fuck rite...excuse after excuse...who would believe that...hate it seh...! due to dat my baby is mad wif me...im really hopeless..cant even handle my temper!!im sori hubby...
not to mention im getting sick!! argghhh!!!
dont even know if i want to sleep now...
i just hate it seh...why must i be the one putting efforts for the projects and the rest can enjoy?? though some of them a trying hard to help me..y i bother?? coz i want that stupid cert at the end of the day....
well..its almost 430am..might as well try get some shut eye...
life just goes on....
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
{ 2:11 PM }
Argh...!!! im in my groggy zone...!!
feeling a bit of edgy...like a live wire going to snap...
hmmmmm....groggy gerl..!!!
its rainning again today..cold seh..I think im getting a cold
well...rite now im totally a bit broke...got no $$$$...
only getting my pay next week...friday seh...grrr..lamer siol..!
today is Bernard's bday!happy bday bernard!!!
this coming sunday is Leen's bday....hahaha...big gerl already...
hmmm....happy happy k...
well...im getting bored with this skin...tot of changing everything...even deleting the long previous entry...to me, its hurting reading those previous entry that has old memories n dreams which i share with he who i shouldnt name....all the dreams n promises...i want to start a fresh...
juz got no time to do...
well...i dont know why i snap at MrB in the morning...maybe coz he came home from skul late n didnt picked up my call...but i shouldnt b such an idiot rite..?he has been working early everyday n going hm late...so understand la....stupid seh..
sorry B....
Today is such a stupid day for me...
i reformat my mp4 w/o thinking....n *phuff* EVERYTHING inside Every documents & songs & pics are GOONNNEEE!!!!
arghhhhhhh...!bingit seh...!how stupid of me, reformating w/o transferring file to pc..arghhh..!!all my fav. songs are gone!!
just ask B to help me download songs again...today he got jamming at 11-2am...and tomoro start werk at 7am....haiz!!he thinks that he is strong...well...up to him la..
me,i got no plans today...!wan n shark not in skul..irfan dont know wat plans he has..hmmm...entah la...maybe just pick B up from werk n send him to simei,marc's place...maybe i juz do that,i think...
well....got to go do stuff...I MIzZ HIM..!!!
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
{ 11:20 AM }
Arghhhh...!!!! its so freaking cold to the MAX..!
the place i call Home is not safe anymore due to some reasons...shit..!
never gonna leave my private stuff at home anymore...
hmmmmm...now in James's class...doing some internet stuffie...ahak!
Today is MrB.'s 1st day...for skul....!!!rite now,i think he's working..just met him yesterday...picked him up from work...he's doing well at work...im so happy that he enjoy working..hehehe...abt us...hmmmm....let me think...we are doing VERY fine n good..!! enjoying each other company...he's been great ah..
arghhh...!!! the guys at skul are doing all type of weird stuff...giler ah dorg...pokemon& transformer singapore version n stuff...
gtg...lunch time..!!!!
Friday, July 20, 2007
{ 11:36 AM }
im feeling lost!
hopeless,weird!
im always hurting MrB!
im totally a sucky gf..!
stupid...
arghhh...!!
still got work later..!sick seh..!
Is these another test from GOD...??!!
when will end??when will i really see a smile on MrB's face...??
im such a failure..!!!
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
{ 12:54 AM }
I hate my life!cant sleep rite abt now..but still need to wake up damn early later...haiz!!
projects!!and more projects!!!
going downhill...ya!
Life is totally going downhill wif the family...
haiz!!abused mentally n physically...arghhh!!!
cant take anymore of these bullshit!
everyone has their limits...and my patience is running out!!
Later in the morning still got ETP projects to hand in..not much done...well!fuck it..if no one cant be bothered y should i...they digging their own grave...definately digging my own grave soon...wouldnt be long ah...
how much more pain can i take...???i have freaking no idea!!!
fucklife~
Thursday, July 12, 2007
{ 2:50 PM }
Some people juz dont listen..even after you tell them over and over again!
Its frustrating you know..and they kinda like a fly, bugging u all the way...
my group juz got into trouble again! We didnt have any script to do our performance due to that,its postpone nxt week...must come up with a good show..talkshow,roadshow and watsoever la...every did bit by bit..give ideas or so..some of the fella help and know their stuff..but some juz arghhh buat tak tau n juz do their own stuff...thanks to Wan,he's not here..and everything is juz trash i say...no organising n stuff like dat...but we got to learnt and use new gadget...got to use the CANON latest camera &video stuff..cool shit seh...but those who didnt come rugi la dorg..
its irritating seh....
haiz!people nowadays..oh ya Baby sick today but he still went to work...hope he's ok.. charlo..got nxt class to attend..new teacher i heard..
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
{ 11:55 PM }
Hmmm...Didn't actually went to school today so I got no idea wats going on at skul..But the freaky thing is that got project presentation later in the morning...got no idea how my group gonna make it diz time round...
Hey guys & ladies!we all better buck up...!not 1st sem any more...we are graduating soon....good grades people...
For our own future..Well...i kinda skip skul today rite...went to meet up Mr B for breakfast,his treat..bought his new shoes for work which is so much comfy,he said...and sent him to work..ohh...forgot to mention..he is now workin at m.w ..he is also starting skul soon..so not much of seeing him once he starts skul n stuff..
Like I mentioned on the last entry...i totally regret my actions towards MrB..its juz not fair for him...im wrong abt everything that i've been doing...i want to change for the better...
Like some1 very dearest to me told me,"If u really Love that person,u will do it naturally"..Thanks to him...every word of bitterness that came out of his mouth,is a painful lesson for me to learn n absorb...
like people say that dont make promises if u dont meant them...i wouldnt make any promises,juz asking my dearest to see the changes himself...n trust again
enough of sheading tears for the mistakes u did...
enough of saying too much of 'sorries' girlfren...
lets show baby that wat i said i really meant it...only time will tell...
well..knocking out now...zzzzzZZZZZZZzzzzz
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
{ 11:49 AM }
HATE MYSELF...!
regret watever i have done to hurt my dearest...he dont deserve the
suffering that i put upon him...its not fair for him...he have his own problems,why am i being an idiotic gerlfren to just add on to his probs....
i regret....i feel so stupid...i cant even think straight...
baby,im so damn sorry....! i cant forgive myself for the hurt i cause upon u...
just cant forgive myself....so i dont expect u to forgive me....
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
{ 11:46 AM }
Yesterday I had the craziest & happiest day of my life...I got to spend the whole day wif My Baby ....!! We met up after Mr.B settled doing his stuffie... he had these gloomy face when we met up...kecian dia...he really been through alot of shit these past few months...he's been strong for what i knew ah...crazie guy...
For the longest time,for the past few months...yesterday i really got to see the real him again..the man that i fall in love wif...seeing his face full of joy...n seeing his smile again...i felt like i just fall in love wif him again...hehehe
It made me so happy seeing him the way he is again...his true self...not someone who is all gloomy n like he had a storm on top of his head... and for as long that im wif him...yesterday i hugged & kissed him like the most of time than i ever have...felt like i dont want to let him go....
sitting at pasir ris park & just talking...its been some times since we relax and talk under the moonlight & stars...
seriously talking...i had so much fun! talking,smiling,hugging,disturbing him the whole time....and he says that i was all girlie the whole time....hmmmmmm.....really?
nah...dont think so....hehehehehe
baby dearest...for all that had happen for the past few months back,we had gone through it....together...supporting each other...for watever that happen yesterday , we will get tru it...you can do it dear...all you have to do is to work hard & also focuse on your studies k...i'll be supporting you at the back...trully....
well i need to get ready PRONTO...meeting up wif dearest coz he got an interview later at 2....chao
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
{ 11:59 AM }
waiting for baby to call...then meeting him...
tot of meetin him at woodlands pick him up from home...but donno he havent reply my msgs...
oh well...maybe just go there ah...easier...
should go out of the house soon...got a lot of off days these week...yeah!
pay coming in...did my atm card already...
ok....the you know who start blabberring.....shit!
cant stand it...going out already ...meeting baby...
